sunday morning...i woke up at 10.30, realizing today is easter day...
i slept in my parent's room since they have not been here since the past few days. gone for holiday.
i walked towrds my room only to see that both of my sisters are still there not getting ready for church...

"i thought u guys went with aunty elizabeth"

i threw my tantrum.
i shouted.
i seriously need a break.

too bad things will always go the opposite direction.

for the past few days it has only been biscuits and instant noodles....
i felt helpless...
i don't even want to think of what to eat.
i didnt go to church either





peace...
i want peace
i am so irritated by my family
my sisters, my granma...

my sisters, i wanted to slap them so badly
my granma, i wish she could just leave me alone for a while



assignments....everyone is rushing finals.
i am sitting here blogging my thoughts....now its not a solution to my problems

i can see that i cant do anything well by my own...
but yet i dont want to be dependant
what do i want actually
i dont really know....


and its such a bad habit putting thoughts in wrong words....
i wanted to hide...
i want my sleep....


sigh...i have to regain my composure...
i will try harder.....
i should not give up

i'll be off to do my assignments...











but i still want time to stop so i could let myself to think straight again...